Ach. I hate being stressed. Tomorrow is the Met competition. Singing Poison Aria, offering O war ich schon, Quando men vo, Ann Trulove, and Ach, ich fuhl's. After tomorrow's audition, I have several more, and tomorrow night I need to go through Mattinata and Nuvoletta and listen to Mikhail's coaching on them, for Music Academy audition on Friday. Next week I have Teatro Gratticella and I need to go through Donde Lieta and Deh vieni over the weekend for that. Later on, I will need to know a Fledermaus aria (in English), and go through Lisette's vignette from La Rondine (for December 4th). That's all the music for December, but meanwhile I have to get started on the Lukas Foss piece. I am singing it for Sally on December 10th, and PBJ on December 15th. Thanksgiving weekend and the following week I'll have lots of time to work on the Foss, and the Fledermaus and Rondine. The Foss performance is January 30th, in February (probably) is the Coffee cantata benefit, March 4-6 is the Strauss and Mahler, April 13th is the Sumeika's Song premier (i'll have most of March to learn that). in May is the Jenson comp (February is the Zachary's) but it's all my normal rep, so that will be just review.
ACH! So much to think about, let alone trying to get in shape. I think the trick to losing these last few pounds is to truly make it a lifestyle. Make it something I don't need to give that much energy to, because I really need my energy to devote to my singing. It would be AWESOME if I could get down to 130 by Feb. 25 (my 30th birthday!). and I really want to look hot for my Carnegie concert on January 30th. I really do need to start now. I hope I start bleeding really soon because I want to lose this water weight and start over again. I'm going to use this blog as much as I need while I'm trying to drop the pounds. It will be nice to have an emotional outlet to help me through my struggles with food. For example, today I overate around 11 am. I had planned to get to the gym and run my 6 miles (which I didn't do today), but instead I sat on the couch and had hummus and almond butter. If I had had this blog to write in, I would have sorted out the real reasons I wanted to eat and not run. I enjoy running, and I would have felt immensely proud if I had completed my workout. Right now I want to eat chocolate. I don't want to go to bed and I'm worried about sleeping tonight because I have that audition tomorrow. But just having this to write about my feelings will really help. The other thing I plan to do as I get back into shape is to STOP with the high expectations. I want to take each day as it comes. Because the truth is, it's a lifestyle change, and even on days that I can't or don't want to exercise, I CAN lose weight. So even if I only do 3 cardio sessions and not 4 in a week, that can still be a successful week, as long as I count my calories and stay positive, even if I'm PMSing, etc. My goal is simply to just do the best I can at every moment of the day. It's a good idea to incorporate weights into my routine, so maybe one day I'll do Jillian Michaels, and another day I'll just throw around the free weights for awhile, and another day I'll do a yoga session. This is not all-or-nothing. It's just do the best I can, and stay positive. For now I do want to keep to my running program because I want to have a joyful experience in the 15K on December 19th. But if I miss a run (like today), that's alright. I'll still be able to run the race. Tomorrow I will aim to run a little extra.
I already feel better. Gonna cuddle with the man, and read more of my Committed book (SO good!!)
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