I have another audition today.  It's going to be fine.  I'm offering Quando, Donde lieta, Anne, and Poison.  I know all of those inside and out.

Dietwise, I see myself slipping back into an unhealthy mindset and bad habits.  I've been bingeing all morning, and I binged a lot of yesterday afternoon.  I see the pattern that it usually happens when I have an audition coming up, or when I've just had one and can relax.  I need to break this pattern.  I can't allow 2 days of bad eating turn into 2 weeks.  I haven't even eaten that badly, but I see myself just constantly on a sugar craving, and I have no motivation to go to the gym.  Today my training schedule tells me I need to run 4 miles and do 30-day-shred level 2.  I just haven't wanted to move at ALL, all day long.  I'm dreading getting into my dress for fear that it will be too tight and I won't look sexy.  this mindset is what I've been dealing with my WHOLE life and I just don't know how to break through.  Because even before I was a singer I had an unhealthy relationship with food.  Well.... actually, my self-destructive habits didn't really start until I started performing in community theatre when I was 12, but coincidentally that's when most girls start to get insecure and go on crash diets.  But anyway, I'm not going to stop singing anytime soon, so I need to figure out a way to manage the stress of singing so that I don't turn to food.

Anyway, after my audition today, I'm going downtown for my interview at the animal shelter, then I'll get home probably around 6:30-ish.  I plan to get my gym clothes on right away and pound out 4 miles on the treadmill.  Tonight I can do JM2, maybe right after dinner.  It's only a 25-minute-long workout, I can handle it!